Quarantine Ramblings: #02

I’m currently looking over all of my music equipment and wondering why I still have it. Why do I continue to carry this all around with me at this point. I don’t really have time to use it much these days. I don’t have any ambitions of forming a band and playing shows. I’m out of practice… It’s weird. Making and recording music has been a big part of my life for a long time. In a way, it defines a lot of my approaches to things. I think that’s why I keep carrying it with me… Like, if I get rid of it, I’m getting rid of a piece of me. Who knows!?

Well, those were my thoughts earlier… At this point I’ve come to accept that being a musician will always be a part of my life, but it doesn’t always have to be the defining part of my life. I can let it go and view it as a previous chapter and it feels quite liberating to not have to feel some sort of obligation to create something because it’s what I’m supposed to do. To be able to pick up an instrument and just play it without that pressure is extremely freeing. I wish I would have taken a moment to sort of unpack and think this through earlier. I know, this seems pretty ridiculous to write an actual blog post about, but I think the overall message I want to convey to people is that it’s okay to move on to the next thing and not constantly have to drag your past with you. You’re allowed to reinvent yourself, grow, and create new experiences. Sure, you still have your past experiences to draw upon, but let it be a part of you and not outright define who you will be.

Alright, that’s enough. Until next time.

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